Recent dreams containing despair page 2

Despair

Me and my two guys friends were walking and the all of a sudden i fell into a dark hole and and was frozen my friend threw his silver pocket watch down to me but i was frozen all alone in despair and couldn't move .In real life he has on and i woke up curled in a ball hurting.

I Am On A Quest Searching For Someone That's Close To My Heart And Soul. I Don't Know This Persons Name Or What They Look Like Just That If I Don't Find This Person It Could Mean Death. I Go Down Into This Valley Of Nothingness And I Have To Go Into This Deep Dark Sewer That Seems Endless In It's Entirety. Once I Get To The Bottom Finally With A Circular Center Of Cascading Water And Purest Marble And Stone. The Water Is Deep Enough To Rise Above The Ankles. There Are 4 Rooms Surrounding The Circular Center. Each One Being Entirely Different In It's Shape Position and Presence. 1. Room Is Rounded And Long And Deep But Brightly Lit By Orbs Of Untouchable Lights That Are Scorching In Their Purity. The Further Into The Room I Enter The More Intense The Lights Become and They Begin To Burn Into The Very Depth Of My Soul Making Me Dizzy and Aware Of An Overwhelming Need To Lay Down and Sleep. Forceing Me To Flee Out Of There Lest I Give In And Not Finish My Quest 2. The 2nd Room Is Short and Shallow The Smell Is So Musty And Reeks Of Death And Despair. Despair So Heart Shattering That It's Like It's Own Personal Purgatory. There Is Nothing But Dim Lightning And Grey Mishapen Stone Walls That Glistened With Only What Could Be Described As Tears Thousands and Thousands Of Heart Wrenching Tears. Entering This Room I Can Only Make It Halfway Before Falling To My Knees Sobbing And Crying Out To The Heavens For Forgiveness Not Of Myself But For Those Lost Here, Because I Know I Know Within My Heart Of Hearts That What I Feel Here Can Never Be Redeemed Never Be Found and Will Never Make It Before The Gates Of Heaven Or The Gates Of Hell. It Shakes Me To The Core So Deeply That I Barely Have The Strength To Crawl On My Hands And Knees Sobbing Like My Own Heart Has Been Ripped Out To The Center Of Rooms. 3. This Room Is Highly Arched And Ancient Rome In It's Design. It Has Symbols Unlike Anything Imagined From Floor To Ceiling. Flames Of Lights Stream Down From The Ceiling Going All The Way Down. It Is Beautiful In It's Design. But The Symbols Are Memerizing They Move With The Trail Of A FingerTip And The Longer I'm Here The More I Want To Stay and Figure Out The Meaning Behind These Unknown Symbols. I Keep Following The Symbols In Wonder Until I See This Large Symbol Unlike All The Others It Is Red And Large and Ominous But Strangely Intriguing. I Have To Touch It Just From Sheer Curiousity. But As Soon As I Touch It The Flames Of Light Exstinguish and The Symbols Start Spinning In An Amazing Tornado and The Room Pitches Into Black And The Hallway Starts Rapidly Closing And The Water That Was Only Ankle Deep Before Is Gushing In From Nowhere and I'm Forced To Run Back Towards The Entrance As Stones and Marbles Come Crashing Down. I Make It To The Center To See That The Water Is Waist Deep And Murky In Color. The Stones and Marbles Are Still Crashing All Around The Previous Entrance Is Blocked. The Other Rooms Are Destroyed and The Darkness Of Nothing Is Threatning To Engulf Me. 4.Room Four Is Short And Slanted And Unappealing. There Is A Dirty Blood Smeared Mattress Blocking The Entrance. I Have To Crawl Underneath The Mattress With Blood Smearing In My Hair On My Skin Burning Holes Through The Touched Places Causing Me To Scream. The Water Is Above My Head And I'm Swimming Furiously Towards An Opening That I Hope Is An Opening And I'm Panicking That The Lack Of Oxygen Is Gonna Make Me Pass Out. But I Reach The Opening And Tumble Out Dry and Whole Like Nothing Ever Happened. But The Valley Is Different It's Green And Bold And Full Of Beautiful Wildflowers As Tall As My Chest I Am Crying Cuz I've Unfinished My Quest. I Race To The Top Of The Hill With A Razor Wire Fencing And Reach It To Cry Out In Despair There Is Only A 2000 Foot Drop Off Into Black Nothingness On The Other Side. So I Climb Back Down The Hill To The Valley Of Beauty But Loneliness and I Lay There Knowing That I Have To Get Back To The 4 Rooms Or Death Will Be Waiting. Then I Wake Up

I was in this Native American camp with Pocahontas and her father was telling her something that made her cry and then he started to beat her. Out of nowhere these machine like animals started to terrorize the camp, it killed everyone except for me, Pocahontas and my friend Emily. Some Military men came and told us to follow him, when we did we were taken to a military base and were explained to about the dangerous machine animals. Then men then told us that he had been holding all the Disney Prince's hostage and if ever wanted to see them again we would so what we were told... I saw Prince Adam (from Beauty and the Beast) all tortured and bloodied but I dare not move. Pocahontas and Emily were agreeing to the men while I stood there unsure... The men then killed Prince Naveen, then Aladdin and Hercules, Emily, Pocahontas and I all started to cry in despair. Emily started to beg me to agree but then I woke up due to another machine animal attack... I had died.

My friend (female) in real life was forced to marry a man she didn't want to by the man. Everyone knew it was wrong, everyone saw him being abusive and said nothing. When it came to the wedding day my female friend seemed to become male in appearance. After some time I witnessed her partner being physically abusive and see looked at me with despair I couldn't stand it any longer and stepped in. We started to fight as in punching each other (me and her husband) I got the upper hand and started to beat his head with a house brick but I couldn't hit him really hard because I knew I had won but he wouldn't give up and I just kept hitting him hoping he would go down. I had pity for him because he was weak as in as a person but I knew I had to finish him and then I cracked his skull and he went down. Freeing my friend from him all together

I had a dream last night that my boyfriend had sent someone to kill me. I think it began with the two of us up in my room reading or relaxing and we were just heading to bed when someone knocked at the door. I went down to answer it and it was a guy similar in age to me he said he was a friend of my boyfriends and was sent here 'to the do a job for him'. I remember running upstairs confused and asked my boyfriend what was goin on and next I remember the guy standing behind me and my boyfriend sayin 'make it look like an accident ok?' and then he tells me that his friend is hired to kill me! I can't remember much else after that other than a feeling of utter panic and despair

Despair

In my dream I saw that my sister had died and I am crying in despair. I am emotionally ruined and desperately want her to come back. My mother is taking all that very boldly. She says that my sister was very lonely and its good that she has died

I was with my violent ex, it felt so realistic, I was upset shouting and crying asking him why he hurt me, and that I still loved him, that I wished he could understand I need him but want him to know what he's put me through, he was saying he loved me but it was my fault because I took him to court for the violence, and he was sleeping with other girls to hurt me more, I felt so emotional and angry, I hit him over the head with a pan and it killed him, I didn't mean to kill him, I felt in despair I tried waking him up but he wasn't responding, I buried him under the floor in my bedroom with the advice of my friends, I couldn't keep it a secret thought I felt so hopeless and alone, I was going to confess, but I thought I'd check on his body first to try wake him up again, I was emotional and crying, when I got to him I held him and kept shaking him, he was bleeding really badly, but he starting moving, he woke up and I felt so relieved and overwhelmed with joy, I told him how sorry I was and that I loved him and never wanted to lose him, I ran and got him some bandages for his head and some water, he said it was okay, he held my hand and we walked away, then I woke up

I recently have just been broken up with by my boyfriend. I am so so so in love with him and everything was fine and then he randomly dumped me because we got into a little argument but that wasn't the real reason he broke up with me, it turns out he just felt like we were drifting and he didnt want to lead me on anymore and that he was just starting to realize that I am not right for him. Even though for so long he would tell me he loved me more than air and would always love me and he couldn't believe that someone like me would go for a guy like him and that he felt so lucky to have me.....anyway I'm heart broken so bad that I am in therapy and on anti depressants. I'm a senior in highschool and I have to see him everyday laugh and smile, and I go home and cry for hours. So anyway I had a dream first that was me in English class asking him to please consider taking me back and he gave a distressed face to me and (this is weird) I started BEGGING for him to take me back and I told him if he did I would give him all of my weed, I don't smoke but he does and when I said this he suddenly looked interested in me again, not just because of what I had said but he was looking at me with love and compassion like he always used to. Then he kissed me and held me and it was a fantastic kiss that was slow and familiar just like our kisses always used to be it was like our minds were connected and everything was sparked with passion. And then I was smiling ear to ear knowing he was finally going to take me back and we both out on our backpacks and he grabbed my hand in his and said let's go (to our next class) and I said to him that he didnt even have to hold my hand in public if he didnt want to or didnt want people to know we were together yet I was just so happy and grateful that he was taking me back I could care less about what we did in public but he said no he wanted to hold my hand so we walked down the halls and we stopped again and I just squeeled and hug him at tight as I could telling him I'm so happy he was taking me back and he hugged me back and smiled. And while this was happening I was thinking to myself in the dream "is this real? Or is this a dream? I think it's real! Oh my gosh it IS real!" And then I kind of woke up and realized with despair that is WAS in fact a dream but I immediately went back to dreaming and (this is confusing bear with me) I went back to dreaming and I realized in this dream that my last dream was not real and I was angry at my ex for lying to me and saying he would be back together with me and now in this dream he did not. So I went to the bathroom in school and started crying his cousin was in the bathroom (she also goes to my school) and I just started venting to her about everything and then I pulled out my cell phone and called her....even though she was in the bathroom with me??? And now I was talking to her on the phone while she was in the car with my boyfriends father and it was on speaker and I heard my boyfriends father say "yeah shelton he just texted me and said " shelton is having a mental break down again hahahah she's crazy" and so I hung up and ran to my ex and started yelling at him asking him why he was saying mean things about me when I was hurting so bad because of him then the story just dropped and it was two random scenes, we were sitting on the floor by the cafeteria with a few of our friends and I was just sitting there sad listening to him talk like I always do at school and he randomly pulled out a cigarette and started smoking (he doesn't smoke cigarettes) and I told him if you get caught you will be in so much trouble, there is a teacher right there. And he replied to me and said "oh shit thanks" and put out his cigg. Then another random scene, we were in religion class and I was sitting there sad like I always am and even though I knew we were breaking up I went up to him and combed my fingers through his hair like I always used to do and said "I just miss you so much" and he looked very annoyed and uncomfortable and said "Uhm can you not touch me, thanks" and pulled my hands away. And then I woke up. So I was wondering of there was any symbolism in there? Could it mean he will take me back in the future or is this just like symbolizing my desires and then showing my disappointment? Thanks!!