Dream of grandmother, church, mother

At church with mother who pasted away, step dad, grandmother who is in a nursing home, step sister who im am close to. they all sitting in a pue and there is no room for me i sit in back with two pillows and teaddybear i get up all upset and as i go pass them i look at step sister and say i guess i will always be a dissapointment to u. i walk to a doorway and inside are three giantic organs i notice two firedoors, but to get to them i have to climb over the huge piano benchs, so i climb over and try opening first firedoor wont open s i go to sec. firedoor and i hear someone say i hope u dont put the alarm off.