Dream of grandmother, mother, church

Im in church with mother who past away from cancer, step dad, grandmother who im close to and who is in nursing home, step sister who i am close to. they sit down on bench in the church and i have to sit behind them cause there is no room for me to sit with them. i have two pillows and my teaddybear with me i get up cause im upset and as i walk past them i say to step sister i guess i will always be a dissapoint to u. i walk back the ile to a doorway and a room with three huge pianos and i notice two firedoors that to get to them i have to climb over a huge piano bench, so i climb over and i try first firedooe it doesnt open, i go to second firedoor and before i try opening it i hear a voice say i hope u dont put the alarm off.