Dream of eyes

I'm sitting alone, in a dark cold room, there is only a spot light on me. I am cold and scared, i feel ashamed and hurt. I feel broken inside. I'm holding a cold stainless steel kitchen knife in one hand, and I close my eyes. I slowly cut my wrist with that blade and feel my blood flow out of my veins slowly. As I bleed I drop the knife on the flood and feel the life flow out of me with my blood. I look down at the floor and watch my blood gather on the floor, the blood turns black and forms a rose on the floor. A big black rose made of my blood. I sigh and close my eyes and feel as if my life just leaves me as I just breathe out.