Dream of

Its all dark again. im sitting at a long dinner table with others i dont recognize, they tell me to be quiet as a man looms over me. we're enacting a play and i didn't memorize any of my lines. the others cower, snapping at me when i say the wrong thing. i must be drunk, as i begin signing, loudly and out of key. the man is testing me, wanting me.. they warn me.. i falter, carelessly. soon, we make a move to leave, packing up our vw bus, fuming, silently.