Dream of

I was having an affair with a teacher and he dies. i'm writing him a letter to say goodbye. only my sister knew about out relationship. i keep running out of paper so we are looking for more in the car. then somehow my family and i are driving to speedway. i find paper just as my brother and sister give me a miniature lolly machine that you can either put a coin, a marble or your blood into to get the lollies.