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You decide you're going to throw a little party at your house like a BBQ and you invite all your friends and some coworkers. Its a big get together between your friends and lizs. Anyways, its a good party and everyone is having fun. As the afternoon goes on however I start to come to the conclusion im the black sheep and the butt of all your friends jokes, im talking immediate friends not coworkers, so I play along and play nice tell one of them calls me an Ignoramus because of my opinion on the laws involving merry-Jane. So a few of these people start coming after me and the conversation seems to turn hostile. Well I turn for support from you and you have completely sided with these folks and have all agreed im just an idiot who knows nothing and is obviously half way retarded. Well im pretty peeved but then it gets really personal because in my dream you state "well guys dont be to harsh, he is not as educated as us after all and what he is getting his degree in is basically a glorified P.E teacher". I was so so pissed in my dream I told you to suck a dick and when I was leaving everyone was like yeah you're right Rochelle and he is so dumb he can only react with aggression because he has no other emotions he can understand.

I was part of a cheerleader performance with a bunch of girls ages 5-25. I was featured in the performace and was in front of many people while doing the performance. At the conclusion they handed out awards, and notice that may name was listed on the program as Sam-Target Executive recognition. Turns out that a whole line of people throughout my life had come to be present, including my boyfriend who somehow had been gone and not showed up.

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The Atlas 5 will use a single-burn mission to deliver the DMSP F19 spacecraft into a sun-synchronous polar orbit.The targeted orbit is:852.8 km (530 statute miles) x 852.8 km (530 statute miles) circular orbit at an inclination of 98.87 degrees.T-00:02.7...RD-180 Engine Ignition+00:01.1...LIFTOFF T+00:17.1...Begin Pitch/Yaw/Roll Maneuver T+01:25.7...Maximum Dynamic Pressure T+04:04.6...Atlas Booster Engine Cutoff (BECO)T+04:10.6...Atlas Booster/Centaur Separation T+04:20.4...Centaur First Main Engine Start (MES-1) T+04:28.6...Payload Fairing Jettison T+15:39.4...Centaur First Main Engine Cutoff (MECO-1)T+18:28.4...DMSP F19 SEPARATIONAtlas 5 FactsThis will be:Atlas/GPS 2F-4 launch timeline Posted: May 3, 2013 T-00:02.7Engine StartThe Russian-designed RD-180 main engine is ignited and undergoes checkout prior to launch.T+00:01.1LiftoffThe United Launch Alliance Atlas 5 vehicle, designated AV-039, lifts off and begins a vertical rise away from Complex 41 at Cape Canaveral Air Force Station, Florida.T+01:18.4Mach 1 and Max QThe Atlas rocket achieves Mach 1 some 78 seconds into the flight, then passes through the region of maximum dynamic pressure at 91 seconds.T+04:04.4Main Engine CutoffThe RD-180 main engine completes its firing after consuming its kerosene and liquid oxygen fuel supply in the Atlas first stage.T+04:10.4Stage SeparationThe Common Core Booster first stage of the Atlas 5 rocket separates from the Centaur upper stage. Over the next few seconds, the Centaur engine liquid hydrogen and liquid oxygen systems are readied for ignition.T+04:20.4Centaur Ignition 1The Centaur RL10 engine ignites for the longer of the two upper stage firings. This burn will inject the Centaur stage and GPS 2F-4 spacecraft into a transfer orbit.T+04:28.4Nose Cone JettisonThe two-piece payload fairing that protected the GPS 2F-4 craft during the atmospheric ascent is separated to reveal the satellite to space.T+17:07.1Centaur Cutoff 1The Centaur engine shuts down after arriving in a planned elliptical transfer orbit. The vehicle enters a three-hour coast period before arriving at the required location in space for the second burn.T+3:17:37:8Centaur Ignition 2The Centaur re-ignites to circularize the orbit and enter the GPS satellite constellation.T+3:19:07.1Centaur Cutoff 2At the conclusion of its second firing, the Centaur will have delivered the GPS spacecraft into the targeted circular orbit of 11,047 nautical miles, inclined 55 degrees to the equator.T+3:23:52.8Spacecraft SeparationThe Global Positioning System 2F-4 navigation satellite is released into orbit from the Centaur upper stage to complete the AV-039 launch.Data source: United Launch Alliance.Final Shuttle Mission PatchFree shipping to U.S. addresses!The crew emblem for the final space shuttle mission is now available in our store. Get this piece of history!STS-134 PatchFree shipping to U.S. addresses!The final planned flight of space shuttle Endeavour is symbolized in the official embroidered crew patch for STS-134. Available in our store!Ares 1-X PatchThe official embroidered patch for the Ares 1-X rocket test flight, is available for purchase.Apollo CollageThis beautiful one piece set features the Apollo program emblem surrounded by the individual mission logos.Project OrionThe Orion crew exploration vehicle is NASA's first new human spacecraft developed since the space shuttle a quarter-century earlier. The capsule is one of the key elements of returning astronauts to the Moon.Fallen Heroes Patch CollectionThe official patches from Apollo 1, the shuttle Challenger and Columbia crews are available in the store. | | | | 2014 Spaceflight Now Inc.Atlas/Landsat launch timeline Posted: January 15, 2013 T-0:00:02.7Engine StartThe Russian-designed RD-180 main engine is ignited and undergoes checkout prior to launch.T+0:00:01.1LiftoffThe Atlas 5 vehicle, designated AV-035, lifts off and begins a vertical rise away from Space Launch Complex 3 at Vandenberg Air Force Base, California.T+0:01:27MaxQThe rocket passes through the area of maximum aerodynamic pressure as it accelerates through the lower atmosphere.T+0:04:02Main Engine CutoffThe RD-180 main engine completes its firing after consuming its kerosene and liquid oxygen fuel supply in the Atlas first stage.T+0:04:08Stage SeparationThe Common Core Booster first stage of the Atlas 5 rocket separates from the Centaur upper stage. Over the next few seconds, the Centaur engine liquid hydrogen and liquid oxygen systems are readied for ignition.T+0:04:18Centaur Ignition 1The Centaur RL10 engine ignites for the longer of the two upper stage firings. This burn will inject the Centaur stage and TDRS spacecraft into a parking orbit.T+0:04:26Nose Cone JettisonThe payload fairing that protected the TDRS K spacecraft during the climb through the atmosphere is no longer needed and is separated.T+0:15:23Centaur Cutoff 1The Centaur engine shuts down after arriving in a planned parking orbit. The vehicle enters a lengthy coast period lasting nearly 55 minutes before arriving at the required location in space for the second burn.T+1:10:34Centaur Ignition 2The Centaur re-ignites to propel the payload into the desired Sun-synchronous polar orbit from the parking achieved earlier in the launch sequence.T+1:12:20Centaur Cutoff 2At the conclusion of its second firing, the Centaur will have delivered the Landsat spacecraft into the targeted orbit with an apogee of 421 statute miles, perigee of 410 statute miles and inclination of 98.2 degrees.T+1:18:21Spacecraft SeparationThe Landsat Data Continuity Mission spacecraft in collaboration between NASA and the U.S. Geological Survey is released into orbit from the Centaur upper stage to complete the AV-035 launch.Data source: United Launch Alliance.STS-134 PatchFree shipping to U.S. addresses!The final planned flight of space shuttle Endeavour is symbolized in the official embroidered crew patch for STS-134. Available in our store!Final Shuttle Mission PatchFree shipping to U.S. addresses!The crew emblem for the final space shuttle mission is now available in our store. Get this piece of history!Apollo CollageThis beautiful one piece set features the Apollo program emblem surrounded by the individual mission logos.STS-133 PatchFree shipping to U.S. addresses!The final planned flight of space shuttle Discovery is symbolized in the official embroidered crew patch for STS-133. Available in our store!Anniversary Shuttle PatchFree shipping to U.S. addresses!This embroidered patch commemorates the 30th anniversary of the Space Shuttle Program. The design features the space shuttle Columbia's historic maiden flight of April 12, 1981.Mercury anniversaryFree shipping to U.S. addresses!Celebrate the 50th anniversary of Alan Shephard's historic Mercury mission with this collectors' item, the official commemorative embroidered patch. | | | | 2014 Spaceflight Now Inc.Atlas/MUOS 2 launch timeline Posted: July 8, 2013 T-00:02.7Engine StartThe Russian-designed RD-180 main engine is ignited and undergoes checkout prior to launch.T+00:01.1LiftoffThe five strap-on solid rocket boosters are lit as the Atlas 5 vehicle lifts off and begins a vertical rise away from Complex 41 at Cape Canaveral Air Force Station, Florida.T+01:44.8Jettison SRBsHaving burned out of propellant approximately 15 seconds earlier, the spent solid rocket boosters are jettisoned to fall into the Atlantic Ocean. The separation event is staggered with two motors releasing first, then the others about 1.5 seconds later.T+03:11.5Nose Cone JettisonThe payload fairing that protected the MUOS 2 spacecraft during launch is separated once heating levels drop to predetermined limits after passage through the atmosphere.T+03:16.5Forward Load Reactor JettisonThe Forward Load Reactor deck that supported the payload fairing's structure to Centaur upper stage is released five seconds after the shroud's jettison.T+04:21.0Main Engine CutoffThe RD-180 main engine completes its firing after consuming its kerosene and liquid oxygen fuel supply in the Atlas first stage.T+04:27.0Stage SeparationThe Common Core Booster first stage of the Atlas 5 rocket separates from the Centaur upper stage. Over the next few seconds, the Centaur engine liquid hydrogen and liquid oxygen systems are readied for ignition.T+04:36.9Centaur Ignition 1The Centaur RL10 engine ignites for the first of three upper stage firings. This burn will inject the Centaur stage and MUOS spacecraft into an initial parking orbit.T+12:23.8Centaur Cutoff 1The Centaur engine shuts down after arriving in a planned low-Earth parking orbit of 90 by 340 nautical miles at 28 degrees inclination. The vehicle enters an 8-minute coast period before arriving at the required location in space for the second burn.T+20:22.8Centaur Ignition 2The Centaur re-ignites to accelerate the payload into a highly elliptical transfer orbit from the parking altitude achieved earlier in the launch sequence.T+26:18.5Centaur Cutoff 2At the conclusion of its second firing, the Centaur will have ascending into a 105 by 18,600 nautical mile orbit inclined 26 degrees to begin a two-and-a-half-hour coast.T+2:48:54.6Centaur Ignition 3A final push by Centaur is ignited to raise the orbit's low point and reduce orbital inclination for the MUOS spacecraft.T+2:49:53.7Centaur Cutoff 3The powered phase of flight is concluded as the Centaur reaches the planned geosynchronous transfer orbit of 2,053 by 19,323 nautical miles and 19.1 degrees inclination.T+2:53:32.7Spacecraft SeparationThe U.S. Navy's second Mobile User Objective System spacecraft, MUOS 2, is released into orbit from the Centaur upper stage to complete the launch.Data source: United Launch Alliance.STS-134 PatchFree shipping to U.S. addresses!The final planned flight of space shuttle Endeavour is symbolized in the official embroidered crew patch for STS-134. Available in our store!Final Shuttle Mission PatchFree shipping to U.S. addresses!The crew emblem for the final space shuttle mission is now available in our store. Get this piece of history!Apollo CollageThis beautiful one piece set features the Apollo program emblem surrounded by the individual mission logos.STS-133 PatchFree shipping to U.S. addresses!The final planned flight of space shuttle Discovery is symbolized in the official embroidered crew patch for STS-133. Available in our store!Anniversary Shuttle PatchFree shipping to U.S. addresses!This embroidered patch commemorates the 30th anniversary of the Space Shuttle Program. The design features the space shuttle Columbia's historic maiden flight of April 12, 1981.Mercury anniversaryFree shipping to U.S. addresses!Celebrate the 50th anniversary of Alan Shephard's historic Mercury mission with this collectors' item, the official commemorative embroidered patch. | | | | 2014 Spaceflight Now Inc.Atlas/NROL-67 information sheet A United Launch Alliance Atlas 5-541 rocket (AV-045) will be used to launch the NROL-67 mission for the U.S. National Reconnaissance Office, the agency that controls the country's fleet of spy satellites. The identity and purpose of the satellite being launched on the Atlas are classified. The vehicle will stand 19 stories tall and produce 2.1 million pounds of thrust at launch. The vehicle's performance is capable of delivering 7,800 pounds directly into geosynchronous orbit 22,300 miles above Earth or 38,000 pounds into low-Earth orbit.The launch time on April 10 is 1:45 p.m. EDT (1745 GMT). Camp Hoody

STORY WRITTEN FOR & USED WITH PERMISSIONPosted: November 24, 2007Space station commander Peggy Whitson and flight engineer Dan Tani began repressurizing the Quest airlock module at 11:54 a.m. today, officially closing out a "hugely successful" seven-hour four-minute spacewalk to finish connecting the new Harmony module to the lab's power and cooling systems. The work clears the way for launch of the shuttle Atlantis on Dec. 6 to deliver the European Space Agency's Columbus research module to the outpost.This was the third spacewalk in 15 days for the Expedition 16 crew, the 22nd EVA so far this year and the 99th devoted to station assembly and maintenance since construction began in 1998.During today's spacewalk, Whitson and Tani connected a second set of ammonia coolant supply and return lines to the new Harmony module; finished reconnecting the station-to-shuttle power transfer system that lets docked shuttles tap into the lab's solar power grid; and carried out a second inspection of the station's contaminated right-side solar array rotary joint.The astronauts also prepared the Harmony module's right side port for attachment of the Columbus research module next month while flight controllers at the Johnson Space Center in Houston worked through procedures to fully activate Harmony, checking out its electrical and cooling system connections. Activation had been planned for Sunday, but the work was moved up a day.Space station flight director Derek Hassmann described today's excursion as a "hugely successful spacewalk.""We were able to connect the node 2/Harmony module to the other string of the permanent ammonia cooling system," he said. "And because the crew got out the door early today as they always do, we were able to move early our node 2 final activations. Both node 2 thermal cooling systems are up and running inside the Harmony module, both MDMs, or computers, are powered up and both strings of power systems are up and running. That was an activity that wasn't scheduled until tomorrow. So once again, the crew has enabled us to get ahead."Today's spacewalk capped one of the busiest three weeks in station assembly.Harmony was launched to the station aboard the shuttle Discovery Oct. 23 and temporarily attached to the central Unity module's left-side port. After the shuttle departed, Whitson and flight engineer Yuri Malenchenko staged a spacewalk Nov. 9 to prepare the shuttle docking port on the front of the Destiny module for attachment to Harmony.The docking port, known as pressurized mating adapter No. 2, was successfully moved to Harmony, using the station's robot arm, on Nov. 12. Two days later, the Harmony/PMA-2 "stack" was moved to the front of Destiny and robotically bolted in place. During a spacewalk Tuesday, Whitson and Tani connected one of two ammonia coolant loops and, running ahead of schedule, completed all required electrical connections. They also hooked up part of the station-to-shuttle power transfer system that lets docked shuttles tap into the lab's power grid.During today's spacewalk, they finished the job and carried out the solar alpha rotary joint inspection to help engineers figure out what might be needed to fix it."When you think about it, with our three spacewalks, with our two significant robotics activities, what we've accomplished in the last 15 days is equivalent to a very ambitious shuttle assembly mission," Hassmann said. "What makes it special is we've accomplished everything I just described with just the three space station crew on board. ... So just an amazing accomplishment, it's a first for the international space station program."As for the starboard solar alpha rotary joint, or SARJ, Hassmann said "what they discovered was race ring damage and particulate that was consistent with the damage Dan Tani observed (late last month).""What I gathered from today, and of course the engineers are going to go off and talk about this in great detail, but basically the damage is significant and is widespread," Hassmann said. "I'm not qualified or ready to draw conclusions here today, but we know that the damage is consistent around the race ring. The crew did report the gear teeth themselves looked clean and did not appear to be damaged or rubbed in any off-nominal way, which I took to be good news."With Harmony now wired into the station's main power and cooling systems, NASA is clear to press ahead with launch of the shuttle Atlantis Dec. 6 on mission STS-122. Three spacewalks are planned for that mission, but it's not yet clear whether any additional SARJ work can be crammed into the already busy mission."What we've done is put the program in a better position on STS-122 to understand what they need to do in terms of either sARJ cleaning or SARJ repairs, etc.," Hassmann said. "So we've gathered additional data, verified the extent of the damage and now the folks have some work to do to quantify and plan exactly what they're going to do to address the SARJ issues on their mission." STS-134 PatchFree shipping to U.S. addresses!The final planned flight of space shuttle Endeavour is symbolized in the official embroidered crew patch for STS-134. Available in our store!Final Shuttle Mission PatchFree shipping to U.S. addresses!The crew emblem for the final space shuttle mission is now available in our store. Get this piece of history!Apollo CollageThis beautiful one piece set features the Apollo program emblem surrounded by the individual mission logos.STS-133 PatchFree shipping to U.S. addresses!The final planned flight of space shuttle Discovery is symbolized in the official embroidered crew patch for STS-133. Available in our store!Anniversary Shuttle PatchFree shipping to U.S. addresses!This embroidered patch commemorates the 30th anniversary of the Space Shuttle Program. The design features the space shuttle Columbia's historic maiden flight of April 12, 1981.Mercury anniversaryFree shipping to U.S. addresses!Celebrate the 50th anniversary of Alan Shephard's historic Mercury mission with this collectors' item, the official commemorative embroidered patch. | | | | 2014 Spaceflight Now Inc.Sweden's first astronaut reflects on shuttle mission EUROPEAN SPACE AGENCY NEWS RELEASEPosted: February 2, 2007 Credit: NASA"It was a wonderful flight, extremely exciting. I couldn't have asked for more." ESA astronaut Christer Fuglesang recently spoke about his Celsius Mission.On Friday 22 December 2006, Fuglesang, the first Swedish astronaut in space, returned to Earth with Space Shuttle Discovery with the rest of the STS-116 crew at the end of the 13-day mission to the International Space Station. During the STS-116 mission Fuglesang participated in three Extra Vehicular Activities (EVAs), or spacewalks, to continue assembly work on the outside of the Station. "I enjoyed every minute of it. I am very grateful to everyone who helped me to get there. In particular everyone at ESA, there are a lot of people who have supported me for many years." What was it like to be inside the Shuttle for the launch?"The launch was a real highlight! I was never really nervous, which did kind of surprise me. I didn't really dare to believe that we were really going because of the weather. The launch can also be scrubbed just one second before take-off, because of some technical problem. Until the big solid boosters are lit and you start to move, you never know. Once we left, it was of course a wonderful feeling - 'Yes! We are really going!' When we got into space - everyone was shouting and laughing." What was it like to see the ISS for the first time?"First there was just a really big bright star - when it came closer and you could see the details, it was big and beautiful. When you get close to dock, it's really big!" What was it like when you first entered the Station?"You enter into the lab - it is such a big space that you can be in the middle and not be able to touch anything. You feel a bit dizzy for the first minutes, when you have been used to the Shuttle where there is less space." Can you describe what it was like when you first stepped out of the Airlock for the first spacewalk?"It was different than planned! We had a very well choreographed plan for the way everything was supposed to be done. When Beamer [Robert Curbeam] egressed, he managed somehow to get a door open where the hand control of the SAFER [spacewalk backpack] is. So suddenly we had a new problem that needed to be solved. I actually had to go out the Airlock to try to fix this - it wasn't something we had trained in the pool, so I wasn't sure that I would be able to. But it worked out, and it gave me self-confidence for the rest." "It is a wonderful view when you are out there, and you can see the Earth and see the big Station. Translating along the truss, I enjoyed that a lot. You can just give yourself a little push and you float a few metres without touching anything." How did you feel at the end of the second spacewalk, when you had to return inside?"I felt a little bit sad. Particularly because we had resources to stay out for another hour and I was hoping they would come up with something else for us to do - but no one said anything. I tried to hang outside there for as long as I could before we had to go inside. I was very pleased when I got to do the third one!" You trained extensively for this mission, was there still anything that surprised you?"Something that was complicated was to go to the toilet... particularly what the Americans call 'number 2s'. Due to weightlessness the intestines are not the normal way, so you have to work really hard to get things going. It can get quite uncomfortable." Did you get much of an opportunity to look down at Earth, and what where the most impressive things that you saw?"I didn't have as much opportunity as I would have liked to, we were very, very busy. After undocking we started to get a bit more time. The orientation of the Shuttle meant we also got a better view. I was particularly please the first time I saw Sweden. We also saw the Aurora over Sweden - that was beautiful." "One of the best passes though was the very last day. It was night-time over Europe. We came in over Ireland, over England; I could see London. You could clearly see the Netherlands because there was so much light. Then I saw all of the Scandinavian countries, even the southern coast of Norway - I could see clouds covering Oslo which were lit up. I could see up to the middle of Sweden and Finland - Helsinki. On the opposite side of the gulf, Tallinn and St Petersburg. It is just like flying over a map. The light tells you where the cities are, and then just the complete darkness over the water - it was a beautiful pass." What have you been doing since the landing?"I had to go into NASA on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day for data taking for some of the experiments - and then on the 26th we had a big medical exam. On 27 December we started with meetings to prepare for the debriefings and the presentations which we have to start giving very soon. I had just four days off over the New Year. Since then we've been in daily debriefings. I've just come back from EAC [ESA's European Astronaut Centre, in Cologne, Germany] where we had debriefings."What kind of things do you report back on during the debriefings?"Anything from minor technical details which didn't work very well - for example, a camera that was lost during one of the EVAs because of a screw that wasn't really working properly. Through to the overall message for us - we thought there was excellent team work, which helped to make this mission such a success. There was a really good connection between us and the ground crew - they trusted us and we trusted them. It was like we were not only their prolonged arm, but also kind of a prolonged brain to help to give inputs." How was your re-adaptation to gravity when you came back?"My balance was very affected. It felt a bit like you had been drinking heavily. But it came back fairly quickly. On the second day it was barely noticeable, and by the third day it was completely back. The first time I went jogging, five days after we returned, I got a lot more muscle soreness than I would usually get for such a short run." When does your mission completely come to an end?"I will be on the road for at least for half of the time through to April. We are going to visit all the NASA centres with the crew. We are making a crew trip to Europe - the highlights being Scandinavia, EAC and to ESTEC. There are a few things still for the experiments - taking post-flight data - I will be finished with them in another couple of months." Did you expect that Sweden would be enthusiastic about your flight?"Two months before the launch I saw how it was building up, so I did expect some interest - but I never imagined that it would be to that extent. When we had an in-flight call and it was both the Crown Princess and the Deputy Prime Minister there, it was really nice!" Do you have any longer-term plans as an astronaut?"I will spend a couple of months in Europe this summer, partly working at EAC. Then I will be back here in Houston in the autumn and I hope to get another assignment with the Shuttle. I would like to do a long-duration mission." STS-134 PatchFree shipping to U.S. addresses!The final planned flight of space shuttle Endeavour is symbolized in the official embroidered crew patch for STS-134. Available in our store!Final Shuttle Mission PatchFree shipping to U.S. addresses!The crew emblem for the final space shuttle mission is now available in our store. Get this piece of history!Apollo CollageThis beautiful one piece set features the Apollo program emblem surrounded by the individual mission logos.STS-133 PatchFree shipping to U.S. addresses!The final planned flight of space shuttle Discovery is symbolized in the official embroidered crew patch for STS-133. Available in our store!Anniversary Shuttle PatchFree shipping to U.S. addresses!This embroidered patch commemorates the 30th anniversary of the Space Shuttle Program. The design features the space shuttle Columbia's historic maiden flight of April 12, 1981.Mercury anniversaryFree shipping to U.S. addresses!Celebrate the 50th anniversary of Alan Shephard's historic Mercury mission with this collectors' item, the official commemorative embroidered patch.Ares 1-X PatchThe official embroidered patch for the Ares 1-X rocket test flight, is available for purchase.Apollo CollageThis beautiful one piece set features the Apollo program emblem surrounded by the individual mission logos.Expedition 21The official embroidered patch for the International Space Station Expedition 21 crew is now available from our stores.Hubble PatchThe official embroidered patch for mission STS-125, the space shuttle's last planned service call to the Hubble Space Telescope, is available for purchase. | | | | 2014 Spaceflight Now Inc.Sweeping changes needed for moon-Mars initiative BY WILLIAM HARWOOD Ugg Warm

I think I may have cheated on my husband, but I am not sure. I am confused but find out I am pregnant. I ride a bus in circles trying to decide what to do with the pregnancy. I'm scared. My husband is the father, but I do not want him to be. I contemplate abortion, but that scares me more. The pregnancy progresses fast and soon abortion is not an option anyway. I want to leave, but the pregnancy means I must stay. I am afraid what this pregnancy means and I come to the conclusion that I am so afraid about this pregnancy because I do not love my husband. My husband is not my soulmate and I do not want to have his children.

I had a very weird dream last night and i distinctly remember it. In the ball of my foot i had perfectly thinly sliced carrots, peppers and homemade hot chip embedded into my foot and it was flush with my foot. Once I saw it even though it looked perfect I immieditely went to get a spoon it get the vegetables out of my foot. They were not going wrotten or hurting me. My conclusion was they were vegetable and not supposed to be iembedded into my foot.

I fell asleep at roughly 11:15 on Monday, which was much later than usual. I am wondering if the odd dream I had was in any way attributed to the disruption of my sleeping patterns. Perhaps as I recall these dreams over time, I will be able to conjure up something resembling an answer. Every once in awhile, there will be something that makes me fall in love with the human mind all over again—dreams are one of those things. They are the pictures I wish I could see with my mind in a conscious state. First of all, I don’t remember the dream in its entirety, and the parts I do remember are fuzzy and difficult to recall in details great or small. Before going to bed, I remember feeling embarrassed because I had fudged the name of my favorite Dodos album. I like being right—not in the obnoxious way that makes me correct everyone all the time, but in the way that makes me feel silly when I make mistakes. Trudging forward, I had asked a friend, Kaveh, what his all-time favorite album was. I knew what it was the first time we were friends, but I wanted to see if time had changed his answer. In my days at Purdue, my favorite way to talk to someone new was to ask him or her about music. Naturally, one of our first conversations, and probably the only one that I remember so clearly, started with the same question on which our communication ended last night. Back then it was Beep Beep’s “Business Casual,” which, as it turns out, hasn’t changed. The funny thing about “all-time favorites,” is that I don’t think people understand that the “all-time” makes their response very important since this is, essentially, the end all be all of your favorite _____________. My mind is scattered, and so it is only appropriate that the writing of my thoughts follow suit. Back to my dream, though. As I mentioned, the details are quite difficult to recall. They enter into the visual part of my mind in little snippets, like in movies when there are flashbacks that are supposed to all of a sudden bring you to this great understanding. I have not reached this understanding yet. I remember the overall color of the dream was blue—it was almost like there was a blue neon sign outside the window of the room I called “bedroom.” I remember being aware that the apartment that I was in was one that I lived in previously, during my time at Purdue. The carpet was the same, I remember that much. The layout of the room, though, was entirely different. A much smaller version of where I once lived. My bed was near the window and it was raining. My blankets were like white, fluffy clouds. I like to think that it was the white pillowy down comforter I have always wanted. At least in my dreams I am comfortable. It was raining outside, which I enjoyed when I found upon coming back to reality that it actually was raining. In the dream it was raining big, full drops. The beads of water made a beautiful pattern on the window—I remember admiring them. I have always loved watching rain on windows. When I was little, I used to sit in the recliner by the window in our living room and pretend the drops of water were racing each other. I didn’t have many friends. That’s beside the point. I remember feeling like I was having a conversation with someone, but I was alone. The next sequence of events is most likely out of order. Maybe as I read over them upon completion I will notice what needs to be rearranged. I noticed that my phone lit up. This part, I think, was brought on by the fact that prior to actually falling asleep, I had texted someone and fell asleep before getting a response. In my dream, it was Kaveh (it was in the world of consciousness as well). It related vaguely to what we were talking about before I drifted off, but there was something unrelated to what we were discussing. I don’t remember what the extra part was, but I remember enjoying it. The details here are quite fuzzy, and at this point the dream skipped around a lot. Maybe I was drifting in and out of sleep; maybe my mind is telling me not to remember. I often times think that our rational minds are waging war with their emotional counterparts. At the dream’s conclusion, or really just the last part that I remember before waking up, it was still raining quite a bit—I think that it had picked up significantly. There was lightning, which made the room light up for fractions of a second. I couldn’t see very well because of the flashing light. I felt confused. There was someone in my bed, but I don’t know who it was. I gave them a hug before they ended up there—a friendly hug that makes me think it was someone I already knew. I can’t recall their face.

The setting of this dream took place at four-year University in the student gift shop. Teachers and students were nonchalantly conversing in the shop, like they would on an average day. Mr. Roopchand happened to be one of the teachers conversing in the shop, amongst other teachers. The place where the teachers were discussing “teacher things” was by the clothing rack on a blue polka-doted carpet. All of a sudden, thin, thorn-covered vines began slithering across the carpet toward the teachers. The teachers remained unaware of the vines, and continued their conversations. The vines made its way to the oblivious teachers and crept up their bodies until it reached their thick necks. It wrapped itself, repeatedly around each teacher’s neck that was standing on the carpet, and began to strangle them. The teachers had no chance. Before they could even begin to fathom what was happening, they took their last breath. Although they did not fall to the ground after being strangled to death, as most would expect, they stood in place, as if they were statues. As I stood on the tile floor in utter and complete disbelief, I noticed a correlation between the teachers who were talking on the carpet, and the students who were conversing on the tile floor across the room. I came to a random conclusion that speaking while on the carpet causes vines to appear and strangle the person committing the innocent act. I have absolutely no idea where my conclusion stemmed from. I rushed over to the students to warn them about the absurd and horrific event that just occurred. I told them word for word what happened to the unfortunate teachers, and begged them not to speak while on any type of carpet (good thing only half of the store was covered in carpet, and the rest in tile). The students walked out in oblivion and silence; even though they were stepping on tile. They took no risk. As the students and I walked out of the gift shop, a female student completely disregarded my warning and held a conversation while sitting on the grass under a shaded oak tree, cackling away. I whispered under my breath. "I hope she get's choked by a vine", unexpectedly, a vine appeared, the same thorn-covered vine that strangled the unaware teachers. It wrapped around the cackling student's neck, as it did the teachers prior, and strangled her as she attempted to grasp the last breath of air she would ever take. I grew a strong sense of remorse and sorrow for the unfortunate student whom had no sense of obedience when given instructions. There was an unusual feeling in my stomach. I do not remember stating that one could not speak while on the grass. I shook my head in confusion and mumbled to myself "I thought it was just carpet." As those exact words escaped from my mouth, I slipped off of the sidewalk into the grass for a split second, then regained my proper place back onto the concreted path. As I proceeded to stroll down the sidewalk, I quickly became aware of the thorn-covered veins that attempted to slither up my left leg, up towards my neck region. It tangled itself around my neck and began to squeeze tightly. In a panic, I aggressively attempted to remove the vines from my neck to spare my life. Shockingly, the vines detached itself from my neck with ease. I was is in a state of absolute oblivion. All they had to do was rip them off with their bare hands? I refused to believe that it was that easy. I sprinted home to clear my mind and figure out this situation. I ran into my backyard, only to find that my mother and brother were in the process of removing all of the grass in our back yard, leaving only dirt. "News must travel fast" I stated jokingly. I asked why they had done such and extreme, but clever, deed. They responded, "Not taking any chances." We laughed, and Kristina came outside in the backyard with us to join the conversation. As Kristina was talking, she slipped in a small patch of grass that my mother and brother forgot to remove; Just as I had did earlier that day. Again the vines appeared to collect their next victim. They placed themselves around Kristina's neck and began to strangle her. I screamed in fear " Nina, rip them off with your hands. Hurry up!" She followed my instructions, and frantically tugged at the vines; but they were not releasing her neck. I blurted that she should try getting off of the grass and run on the concrete to see if the vines would remove themselves from her throat. She ran like a maniac down the street, trying her best to remove the stubborn vines. As Kristina ran down the street, a black truck that I was familiar with drove slowly passed my house. In the truck was Mrs. Lisa, a neighbor of mine whom I gave the title of my "second mom", who also passed away last year November. She glanced at me, and then drove off.