Dream of tube

I dreamed I was back at the Center with lots of people I knew. Carlye had her baby and had lost lots of weight. I was amazed at how skinny she was and then laughed at the irony of her being so skinny here. I saw Andie as well though only for moment, and Christine was nowhere to be found. I dreamed I then refused to eat and got tubed, but fought back and pulled it out several times. Carlye was then pregnant again and was doing last call but the half wasn’t up. Liv was also with, however simply visiting. I was so embarrassed to be back yet relieved and feeling safe. But everyone had been giving me crap for the tube, especially Amber. I didn’t deserve this, she said, I deserved to be living my life.